Christmas: A two year reflection

On year ago on this date, I can remember it clearly.  I was sitting in a car with my gf (at that time), driving off to one of her family events.  I can remember clearly not dreading the experience.  However, there was an uneasiness within myself.  I had been in this relationship for 3 years and things were going a bit rocky.  Though I was blissfully unaware of what would transpire 5 months down the road, I was willing to keep the proverbial train going.  I cann`t remember what was said on that day, but at the end of the day, I think that is for the best.

Flash forward one year. After Christmas festivities, I arrived home.  A thought came into my mind: the freedom of being single actually let me enjoy Christmas.  Though I would not want to go through the process again, I feel confident that this Christmas was more full than the one past.

These words by Saint Anselm came to my mind, as I thought about this theme.
Father adorable and terrible, worthy of worship and of fear, I bless Thee, whom I have loved, whom I have sought, whom I have ever desired. My God, my lover, I thirst after Thee, I hunger for Thee, I pour out my supplications to Thee, with all the groanings of my heart I crave for Thee.

In essence, time does heal wounds:  It just doesn`t work in the speed we expect.